Streaming has obviously been on the backburner this past year with how busy I've been. I still play games, just not as long and would rather use all the time to play the game rather than talk to people (people I still enjoy, just I need to prioritize my own enjoyment in the times I can). The same can be said of watching streams. There's just no time for it. I'm back in the mentality of "why watch when I can play," and I've also been trying to stop multitasking when doing hobbies.
I just haven't focused on just myself. I never even wanted to stream or lead a discord group. I just wanted community but the exact right fit community is hard to find for me. I've really also wanted to prioritize offline fun and socialization and to just use my phone/computer less. I left a bunch of discord groups to help me spend less time even browsing conversations I'm not going to be a part of.
I've kept Bluesky as a final bastion of online socialization online (aside from Discord DMs and group chats or if I play an MMO) just so that I have an outlet when I want one.
From the first stream with 0 to 1 viewers to the last real ones in the beginning of this year, I just had a blast. I had fun meeting new people, spending time with my brother and cousin who would come by, turning online friends to physical ones. I'm thankful for everyone who came by, whether it was for one stream or more. I also enjoy drawing up emotes and overlays and changing things around. I just had fun, but it stopped being fun when there was so much variability to my schedule with both start times and sometimes, it would be over before I could even hit "start stream." Maybe one day, I'll go back to it but I'm just going to enjoy my time finishing up the games I started.
Thank you all. I hope it's not goodbye forever, just goodbye for now.
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